The first page in my scrapbook.
I have battled with mental illness for nearly all my life, specifically anorexia nervosa, clinical depression, anxiety and avoidant personality disorder.
This year I decided to make my New Years Resolutions little steps forward in my life, not committing to full recovery or setting unrealistic goals.
I like things to be tidy and neat, I tend to get more stressed and anxious when there is mess. A tidy room, a tidy mind and all of that. However, my body dysmorphia and anorexic thoughts lead to me changing outfits whilst rushing to lead the house and I end up feeling stressed and fat and my room ends up with clothes thrown everywhere and it's a vicious circle of stress, so my resolution is to wear one outfit a day, I'll think about it carefully and put it on and that is it.
This year I decided to make my New Years Resolutions little steps forward in my life, not committing to full recovery or setting unrealistic goals.
I like things to be tidy and neat, I tend to get more stressed and anxious when there is mess. A tidy room, a tidy mind and all of that. However, my body dysmorphia and anorexic thoughts lead to me changing outfits whilst rushing to lead the house and I end up feeling stressed and fat and my room ends up with clothes thrown everywhere and it's a vicious circle of stress, so my resolution is to wear one outfit a day, I'll think about it carefully and put it on and that is it.
My second resolution is way more important than it sounds. Putting my hand infront of my mouth is a safety behaviour I often use when I am feeling anxious or exposed but it gets in the way, particularly in therapy and it makes it difficult for people to hear me. I also think it makes me look a bit silly, and not a sensible and responsible young woman. I'm not saying I'm never putting my hand infront of my mouth ever again, I know it will be a hard habit to beat but by the end of 2014 I hope to have beaten this habit and have better body image.
